9 months ago . . .
Daniel's due date was a week and a half ago and today is the first time I've had the opportunity to sit and process it. The loss of my son has forced me to face so much of how I was raised to process my emotions. I've also been faced with what God says about those emotions, where He is when I experience them, and whether or not He approves of them. As a young child, I was taught that emotions like anger and others that were deemed 'unpleasant' had no place in the life of a christian. Because they were not acceptable in the christian society and culture in which I was raised, therefore, God did not approve of them either. He was the reason they were not acceptable because there were so many Scriptures warning against the improper use of them. They were sinful. If a believer struggled being angry at God or was walking through depression or discouragement, then there was either sin or something wrong with that believer that ...